Semester
2 – Final Major Project
Reflection
and critical analysis
I
started my artistic journey with a BTEC foundation course in the academic year
2008/2009, prior to this I had no experience of the illustration world or
anything remotely arty related for that matter. Indeed I partook in mandatory
art lessons from the beginning of secondary school until year 9 (or third year
for you old ‘uns!) by which time I had it drilled into my head from other
members of teaching staff and my parents that art wasn’t a truly ‘academic’
subject and the thought never occurred to me to pursue it further, hence I didn’t
choose to study it at GCSE even or higher. During my GCSE studies though I did
choose to study Graphic Design as my Technology module instead of other options
including textiles, woodwork or food technology. I achieved an ‘A’ in August of
2004. Again my rationale was to drop anything art related including the Graphic
Design and proceeded with English Language, English Literature and Sociology to
A-level (even though the likes of Graphic Design saw me perform to my best).
When I finished school I progressed to study European Politics at The
University of Nottingham which lasted for a full three months. I soon realised
that I wasn’t happy with my ‘academic’ study choice. This saw me drop out of
university and start full-time employment for a few years before taking the
plunge to go back to university. Going back to university wasn’t initially on
the cards, only after tasting full-time employment in a call centre did I know
that I wanted more for myself. I returned after these few years out to Stockport College on the Foundation BTEC and the
rest is history.
When
I eventually started on my BTEC I didn’t really have a clue where to begin, as
I say I had no experience of art. I could draw but that was about the extent of
it. Photoshop, Illustrator, InDesign and other software was alien to me, I’d
never even heard of such packages let alone opened one. When Pat, Gary and Tim
asked me what my style was I didn’t know how to reply, as far as I saw it I
didn’t have one. My BTEC however wasn’t the in-depth, see what-you-can-do
course I was hoping it would be; I managed a pass. Though I don’t remember what
my final mark was, seemingly it was a disappointment. I did however manage to
secure a place on the BA Hons degree with an illustration specialism which was
probably owed to me doing the Foundation BTEC at the same college.
Although
I eventually quit my employment I owe it a lot. By being in full-time
employment I learned how to communicate on a variety of different levels, how
to compromise and how to handle stressful and heated situations, diffusing them
in an efficient and effective manner. This I think will stand me in good stead
when it comes to applying for positions in my illustration career as I have the
ability to adapt to said situations. It has meant that I’ve been able to
transfer these skills and apply them to my university course making me a much
more organised and flexible character. It did take a while for me to understand
that although full-time employment paid my rent, it was my university studies
that would eventually get me out of the work that I didn’t enjoy and into to
work that I will… as I say, I learned heavily about compromise.
During
my first year of my undergraduate illustration degree I did remarkably well and
that even surprised me somewhat. Critical studies was my weakest and least
interested area, even though I studied both English Language and English
Literature at A-level, it seemed my passion for writing and the patience I
needed to hold down a decent assignment had fled. Yet, I still managed to
achieve 70+ in every single module, it seemed I was unstoppable. Unfortunately,
I was soon to be informed that the first year of an undergrad degree doesn’t
count towards the final mark or degree classification. The first few modules
helped me understand the different techniques and methods available and I was
eager to learn how other people worked. I was hungry to learn and immersed
myself in everything around me, I started to visit galleries, something which
was considered boring and stuffy beforehand and researched sources in-depth.
Although others on the course found the first few modules almost insulting as
they felt they were going backwards rather than moving forwards with their
studies I found it a massive help and am positive that there are others like me
out there who will feel the same in future years. These vast achievements were
set to change during the second year however. I was forewarned that the second
year workload increased somewhat and I took this on board, I was also
forewarned that some people can adjust to the new wave of work and some people
struggle with it at first. I was prepared for this. I had been informed, armed
with this knowledge I was ready. Only in late September 2010 I was hospitalised
with a serious kidney injection and put on an IV drip for ten days. Naturally,
this affected my work output and had a knock on effect on my mark for that
initial module of year two. Although we were made aware of the mitigated
circumstances process at the beginning of the course, my ‘it won’t happen to
me’ attitude made me ignorant to the process and thus rushed work to get it
handed in for the deadline. The rest of year two seemed to follow that first
module’s footsteps with high 50’s to early 60’s marks. To say I was
disappointed was an understatement, after the high I experienced in year one,
year two was soon turning into a complete disaster. Strangely, in critical
studies my work continued on a par with year one, achieving low 70’s in all my
assignments and presentations.
On
to year three, there have only been two modules in comparison to a few more in
the previous years plus my dissertation. To show my commitment and dedication to
my degree I made a special trip to Madrid in
June 2011 to visit Guernica
which I was later to write my dissertation on. I was insistent that my mark and
work improve. Thankfully, the first semester module was a definite improvement
on year two achieving 61, a firm 2:1, although not the 1st I was
originally aiming for in year 1. I have now adjusted to the prospect of
graduating with only a 2:1 and am finally happy with this outcome. I am aiming
for a 2:1 again this semester in hope to achieve a 2:1 overall. During the
first semester of year three I realised that utilising tools like the PDP
module, I can up my overall mark. By achieving 70 in my PDP and 56 in the
actual work side, I achieved 61 overall. Although the weighting in semester one
was 60/40 against 80/20 this semester, I still think that doing significantly
well in the PDP work could increase my mark by those all important few marks. I
think that I do work well in the PDP arena showcasing my development and
improvement through constant critical analysis and reflection. I engage well
with industry and contact creative professionals from all creative backgrounds
not just illustration and learned a lot from the compulsory residential trip to
London in late
March.
During
this semester, from my previous blog posts, you can see I have spoken about how
I used, what industry call, the dreaded red button on my own work. I think on
reflection that this was a good move and it shows my understanding of when a
project is not working. The Grimm’s brief was taking more time than it should
have, it overran by an initial three weeks and at that point the design problem
was still no where near to being resolved. It is frustrating that I was unable
to interact with this live brief which would have given me an additional
opportunity to promote both myself as an illustrator and my creative work.
Sometimes it can be a positive quality to be able to stand back and look at the
work critically and say ‘right, this clearly isn’t working’. This is the first
time that I had not managed to resolve a brief, in particular a live brief and
thus it felt completely overwhelming to turn my back on it knowing that this
semester holds such a large percentage of the overall marks. In has made me
work considerably harder since though to develop a body of work that would
justify those first weeks of disappointment.
Over
the course of this semester I have managed to secure seven portfolio visits
with creative professionals already working within the industry. This surprised
me more than anything – the fact that people out there actually wanted to see
me and my work! There was no negative feedback just constructive criticism
which I can take forward and utilise in my future work. It opened my eyes to
just how accommodating the majority of people are, if they think that they can
help you, then nine times out of ten they will. There were only three portfolio
visits specified on the PDP brief but I went above and beyond this as I think
that it is beneficial to my professional practice and work as I can continue
working on the weaker areas identified by much more experienced people than I.
Each visit has boosted my confidence in different areas and has taught me
something new about both myself and my portfolio of work. I am hugely proud of
my portfolio of work having come from nothing artistically. I remember my
interview for a place on the BA Hons degree course whereby I showed my original
portfolio to the potential first year tutors. I started off with a PVC leather
effect Daler Rowney A1 portfolio which was hugely unpractical and is quite
garish to look at now, looking back I have definitely come so far on this
journey.
The
visit to London in March confirmed for me that London is not the place I
want to be. I knew before I arrived that I wasn’t much of a city girl but actually
being there in that environment only confirmed my initial thoughts, though I am
glad for experiencing it. The hustle and bustle of city life and everybody
seemingly being a nobody merely just a passing face is not the type of
environment I wish to live or indeed work in. For me, although the visit to London broadened my
knowledge of the illustration industry and the types of businesses it can lend
itself to, it reiterated the fact that I’m a home bird and would much prefer to
stay north. It also showed me how my leather A4 portfolio is much more
effective, efficient and practical in comparison to my old one! After
graduation my plans are now set with the aid of this trip; I will be applying
for Primary PGCE courses to hopefully start in September 2012.
This
semester has seen me play with more techniques such as screen printing,
utilising Adobe Illustrator, vinyl cutting, animating and collaging with the
odd hint of stitch. Unlike last semester whereby I skimmed the surface of many
different techniques, I feel that this semester has seen me discover my true style.
I have experimented in-depth with collage and stitch till the cows came home; I
truly have applied myself with a relentless attitude and as a result have now
secured some fantastic outcomes. Alongside this I have produced some additional
products outside of my sketchbooks such as the unique hand made sketchbooks I
hand made and hand bound myself, printed cushions, printed babygro’s and my final
children’s board books. Working outside of my sketchbook has taught me that there
are no constraints to my art work really and it is only the sketchbook that
actually provides these. I can now work to whatever scale I feel comfortable with
and I can manipulate different materials to work in a more three dimensional
way. I have built up professional relationships with other artistic people,
such as Rick and other undergrad students working on the moving image course
who helped me no end with the production of my animation and of course Kieran
in the print room. When I leave the college I will also leave all of this
support and of course the facilities that the institution has to offer which
will mean I will need to source them externally.
I
think it’s true to say that I have always been a fairly organised person, but I
have also learned that planning is a great way to gain the best results from my
work. Since the failure of my Grimm’s project, I have made a weekly plan for
the week in advance and made sure that I stuck to it, mainly to get through the
vast workload on time but also to show that I do have some free time to
experiment more which I probably won’t have time for once I graduate. It seems
that after 23 years I have finally learned the meaning of the phrase ‘if you
fail to plan, you plan to fail’.
There
are many opportunities lined up with the help of illustration tutors,
particularly Jo, for over the summer months which could, hopefully, lead to
more work coming my way, maybe even a commission. There will be the Spellbound Forest
activity weekend in Dellamere, near Chester
a few weeks after university life officially ends, Mr Thomas’ Chop House
auction in July, if my work makes it that far and the actual Just So Festival
in August. I intend to keep up to date with creative events that I can get
involved in, even if no work comes from it, it will keep me busy and in that
creative environment.
Finally,
I have learned more than anything this semester that for great results you need
to have a relentless attitude to your work. Sure, there have been days where I
wish my alarm hadn’t gone off at 6:30, especially when I’m not in university on
that day, but by pushing myself to get out of bed and get started I think that
I have made the most of my time and the opportunity that studying on an
illustration course offers, Gary, I truly am exhausted! Over the Easter break I
put in many 12 hour days, and have seen many go by since then till the
deadline, but you can only get out of things what you put in. I know myself
that I have truly worked hard, dedicated as much time as I could possibly have
and tried my best at everything I have undertaken, let me hope that it has been
recognised and pays off on July 12th and I can finally make my Mum
and Dad as proud as they should be.